Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Her Diamonds

This morning my cousin sent me this article about the song "Her Diamonds" by Rob Thomas (from Matchbox 20). The song is about his wife, Marisol Maldonado, and her battle with a rare autoimmune disease.

Here are some of the lyrics:

And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be
 And she says ooh I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cause I can't help her now
Since autoimmune diseases, like RA, are pretty much invisible, it can be really hard to tell when someone is suffering from one. But I think it's even more difficult to tell when someone is suffering because a person they love has an autoimmune disease. In our situation, the RA may have physically happened to my body, but it has affected APL's life just as much as it has affected mine. It has significantly changed his future too.

Nevertheless, he has been there with me every step of the way. And, on bad days, I know exactly how lucky I am. When I feel really bad or have acted really grumpy towards APL, I can't help thinking that while I don't have a choice about having RA in my life, APL does. But, no matter how rude I've just been to him, he always tells me that he loves me and wants to be with me.

Which is why these lyrics, from another song Thomas wrote for his wife, "Ever The Same," struck me too:
You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only give you love
I love you, APL.  I am so very lucky to have you!!

1 comment:

KCFitch said...

Hugs to both of you!