Friday, October 23, 2015

It Still Aches

Today Facebook reminded me about this picture - and it made me cry. Facebook has no way of knowing, but this picture was taken about 30 seconds after I nursed this little dude for the last time ever. I had to wean so I could start medications to treat my RA - chemotherapy medications that are obviously not safe for babies. 

I know with certainty that I made the right choice. My RA is under better control now than it has been for years. I have more energy and less pain, so I've been able to come a lot closer to being the kind of mom I want to be. 

But today this now 15 month old little dude is sick with a fever, and I would give anything just to be able to put him to my breast for comfort. I know I made the right decision, but it wasn't at all what I wanted or planned. And it still aches.

This is an example of why I work so hard at advocacy and fundraising for arthritis - and at providing resources for moms with chronic illnesses. I hope that someday in the future, moms with RA (or little girls growing up with JA) won't have to make this kind of difficult and painful choice.

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